Cyber sex and its mishaps

Well I'm particularly fond of cyber sex. While many people will find it disgusting and sick, however, in absence of real people to make love to/be romantic with, I consider wanking with someone else in some other part of world a viable option plus I like the ethnic diversity it brings :p. Cyber sex is also quite dangerous cause you never know who might be recording you and you'll end up on xtube. Its quote scary, so all you cyber wankers, if you do not wish be landed on xtube then you better take caution with whom you are doing stuff.

Oh well back to the topic, I have video chatted with a few people who were from Karachi and could have been prospective dates but I usually freaked out when it came to meeting them. Well that was the case UNTIL one fine day I started talking to this chap and grew fond of him. He was in Dubai and had planned on visiting Karachi. Last week he landed and we met immediately and made out and had a bj. We met whole of last week and we dined out, talked, drove around city and made out. Making out was absolutely out of this world. It was bloody fireworks, for me at least. I think I'm in love with this guy and that's where the problem is.

I can't get my mind off him. Now that he's going back, its going to be a not tough on my silly heart. Also he never felt the same way as I did, and I am nothing more then a friend with benefits for him. However, I was expecting this relationship to be something more fruitful. I deluded. And its all my fault for the way I'm feeling right now. And I blame cyber sex for this mishap :p. Just kidding! If I had taken him for friend with benefits so I wouldn't have been feeling awful and writing this post. Lol

I have been listening to Lana Del Ray's Blue Jean ever since.